another day.............

sometimes i wonder whether complaining is a good practice. complain about food, drinks,weather, studies and basically everything. to me, it is ok to complain once in a while, but there is a person in my class who complains about everybody. the worst part is i am doing my assignment with her.

there are my members in my group. 3 girls and 2 boys. she complained to me about the girls, and she complained to the girls about the boys. and when she go for consultation hours with the lecturers, another session of complaining. i think she is going all out to just bring the final results of others down since this assignment carries 50% coursework marks. jealousy is really a disaster. a real human-made disaster. she is jealous of others for being better then her. especially last semester,where she lost quite a lot to me. it is a joy thinking of it. haha........

for those who are leaving for US tomorrow, have a safe journey and take care.......

christmas celebration!

christmas is over . it is suppose to be a joyous event of the year. with a lot of sales, count down parties and so on. but for the second consecutive year, i am stuck in my room, doing assignment. so sien.......

luckily i manage to finished it on christmas day morning at 4.00am. if not, i wont be able to do anything for the rest of the day other then researching for my assignment. damn boring searching for something u dont really understand or ever heard of . but that is what i am required to do. search for the motor used in 9 different applications which we never study before.

i would say i am lucky my other team member work with me all night till morning. even though i am the main contributor to this assignment, i am very glad that he is there, struggling to contribute something. i am very grateful for that. he is one of the few who will do

now, both of us are more then half way through our digital systems and design which is due to be submitted on 5th january. quite happy about that since i am going back on that very day to help celebrate my sister's birthday. looking forward to that day.

after handing in the assignment tomorrow, another load is off my shoulder. so relief ........ i can no quicken my pace for the final exam.

十九岁的第十九天

最近真的觉得很压力。功课很多，需要读的书更加多。真的觉得很累，很想放弃一切，把全世界的烦恼都给忘掉，到一个没人知道我是谁的地方生活，过着平凡的生活， 一定很幸福。但，这一切可能吗？我要的生活， 我能达成吗？我想要拥有的，我因该拥有的，我需要的，以后我能拥有吗？最近只觉得这世界的美好以渐渐消失。人生好像没有了娱乐，一点乐趣都没有。每天上课， 回家，睡觉，做功课，有时一天了。每天都做同样的东西，真的好累！

人以人之间的关系也越辩越复杂。喜欢一个人，讨厌一个人，欣赏一个人，都是每个人的权利， 但为何当我对某人不爽时，我总会要全世界的人都和我一样，对那个人不爽呢？有时真的觉得自己好自私，为何我会有这样的想法？是不是因为我是来自一个不同世界的人？还是我真的不适合在这种环境下生存？因该是因为我真得很怕输，十几年来，都在一个很有竞争的环境下长大。 人比人， 比死人， 但我还是无法改掉这个习惯，对我来说，如果没了这个习惯，就不会有进步。但，为何这种习惯是那么的稀少呢？难道他们都不像争取他们所要的吗？

最近，我觉得自己好幼稚， 为了一些小小的事，都会心情很不好或生气。 真的搞不懂自己， 人越老了， 因该不会因小事而生气，但我呢？越老越糟。我一定要改过这个坏习惯！