totally frustrated....

i always wonder why i am the one who is doing the group assignments most of the time.almost 95% of the time. sometimes i get so fed up and frustrated with the assignment that i just feel like leaving out the names of those who doesnt contribute at all. some dont even take the initiative to ask what they are suppose to know and some just assume that that is my job, and as the same group with me, i am suppose to complete the whole assignment completely and just include their names in the end. i dont mind doing assignments that can really improve my technical knowledge, but some assignments are just too idiotic to do, just a total waste of time.

the official exam result has just been released yesterday. the top scorer sort of advertising himself, saying that if his cgpa is to drop another 0.1, he wont be getting any scholarships anymore when he transfer to other university. didnt think of other people feeling. some of them fail a few subjects and they did not utter a word of complain, and this young man is there advertising his 3.91 cgpa. so annoying.

getting more and more frustrated these days. hopefully everything will pass sooooooon........grateful that i need to suubmit the assignment tomorrow, then no need to worry about that stupid assignment any more..........waiting for the day when i dont need to do assignment for others who just share the credit... should relax more this days and just concentrate onmy studies for the last semester.....to forget about everything ...............to cool and pacify myself........or else.................................

first time in class.....

we had a game during class today for the course work marks. this is the first time ever in my almost 2 years in college that we played a game during the tutorial. maybe because this lesson is taught by a senior lecturer who is a PhD holder, tat is why he is daring enough to conduct this type of games during class which venued at the same block with all the head of divisions and school.

this game is suppose to test our marketing skills by pursuading people around the block to come with us to our class. although it is quite wuliao and many of the people we pursuaded have the same thinking as well, it is quite enjoyable and challenging especially if u are the one to pursuade.

it is the first time ever i try doing this as i seldom talk to unknown people, and now i have to try to pursuade others to follow me. although my group didnt manage to pursuade the most people, but i am proud to say taht my group manage to pursuade the second highest number of strangers to come back with me. a grand total of 14 within 6 minutes.

11 of them were found by 4 of my team mates including me and another 3 were pursuaded by another member who went alone. i did all the talking and luckily i manage to attract them to come with me.

this is first time i really interact with other students from other courses. some are really cooperative and some so calculative, asking what benefits will they get by coming back with us. some are really nice people who will follow us when we explain our objectives but some are so so fussy and asked tonnes of questions before follwing us willingly. fortunately, most of them gave in to our request.

anyway, i am so grateful that everything is over and thanksful to those who really cooperated with us...

What Chan Kok Ken Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.





You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

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it will be real busy from now on........

i am having my final exam next thursday onwards till february. there is not much time for shopping and all that stuff that consume too much of time. from now onwards, everything is about study, study, and study.......

another day.............

sometimes i wonder whether complaining is a good practice. complain about food, drinks,weather, studies and basically everything. to me, it is ok to complain once in a while, but there is a person in my class who complains about everybody. the worst part is i am doing my assignment with her.

there are my members in my group. 3 girls and 2 boys. she complained to me about the girls, and she complained to the girls about the boys. and when she go for consultation hours with the lecturers, another session of complaining. i think she is going all out to just bring the final results of others down since this assignment carries 50% coursework marks. jealousy is really a disaster. a real human-made disaster. she is jealous of others for being better then her. especially last semester,where she lost quite a lot to me. it is a joy thinking of it. haha........

for those who are leaving for US tomorrow, have a safe journey and take care.......

christmas celebration!

christmas is over . it is suppose to be a joyous event of the year. with a lot of sales, count down parties and so on. but for the second consecutive year, i am stuck in my room, doing assignment. so sien.......

luckily i manage to finished it on christmas day morning at 4.00am. if not, i wont be able to do anything for the rest of the day other then researching for my assignment. damn boring searching for something u dont really understand or ever heard of . but that is what i am required to do. search for the motor used in 9 different applications which we never study before.

i would say i am lucky my other team member work with me all night till morning. even though i am the main contributor to this assignment, i am very glad that he is there, struggling to contribute something. i am very grateful for that. he is one of the few who will do

now, both of us are more then half way through our digital systems and design which is due to be submitted on 5th january. quite happy about that since i am going back on that very day to help celebrate my sister's birthday. looking forward to that day.

after handing in the assignment tomorrow, another load is off my shoulder. so relief ........ i can no quicken my pace for the final exam.

十九岁的第十九天

最近真的觉得很压力。功课很多，需要读的书更加多。真的觉得很累，很想放弃一切，把全世界的烦恼都给忘掉，到一个没人知道我是谁的地方生活，过着平凡的生活， 一定很幸福。但，这一切可能吗？我要的生活， 我能达成吗？我想要拥有的，我因该拥有的，我需要的，以后我能拥有吗？最近只觉得这世界的美好以渐渐消失。人生好像没有了娱乐，一点乐趣都没有。每天上课， 回家，睡觉，做功课，有时一天了。每天都做同样的东西，真的好累！

人以人之间的关系也越辩越复杂。喜欢一个人，讨厌一个人，欣赏一个人，都是每个人的权利， 但为何当我对某人不爽时，我总会要全世界的人都和我一样，对那个人不爽呢？有时真的觉得自己好自私，为何我会有这样的想法？是不是因为我是来自一个不同世界的人？还是我真的不适合在这种环境下生存？因该是因为我真得很怕输，十几年来，都在一个很有竞争的环境下长大。 人比人， 比死人， 但我还是无法改掉这个习惯，对我来说，如果没了这个习惯，就不会有进步。但，为何这种习惯是那么的稀少呢？难道他们都不像争取他们所要的吗？

最近，我觉得自己好幼稚， 为了一些小小的事，都会心情很不好或生气。 真的搞不懂自己， 人越老了， 因该不会因小事而生气，但我呢？越老越糟。我一定要改过这个坏习惯！